Mc gamer - personal video/ vlog

[pink_sheep]

Sorry for posting this speel here. I know mc looks and I felt the need to.. Meh I don't know ._.


Here it is if you have'nt seen it..
http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=nUbiykZLoQU&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DnUbiykZLoQU%26feature%3Dplayer_embedded

I'm posting this here because I know you look mc and I know this is just one of the communities that love you to pieces :)


You already are that person, maybe not outside but deffinately inside, I myself am dyslexic it really affected my grades I went from a straight A student in my standard grades and went to failing in my highers as quick as a few weeks. Now these where the exam that made or failed your future plans, my plans were shattered the job I wanted I could never do, I never had support to accomplish what I truely wanted bt now I'm doing graphic design and struggling with everything all over again.

Untill I found this little haven.

, I was ready to leave school I only stayed because my parents would have murdered me, all I can say is its lovely to hear about your friends, they can obviously really help, I never had friends so I've actually struggled throught my dyslexia, depression and my self hate ever day alone.
It's kinda funny cause I'm in the oppiset boat to you... In skinny and underweight and I would love to actually gain a few pounds.. darn you metabolism!

I hope you see this. But you are indeed a role model, just the fact you've faced your deamon is something great. So what your a highschool dropout? You have a fabulous job, and you have some of the most lovely fans I've met from any youtuber. I wish I could go back and change my chances though its frankly impossible. I passed even if it was scraping a pass.. Wich destroyed my university dreams

I can only wish you all the best, your love for entertaining is lovely, we can all see it comes from your heart. Every day your videos help me when I have had a bad day. Know this about you just makes me more determined to beat my own daemons. Hopefully I can. It's a long rode but if I've got the live streams hey, i will survive..

I'm glad your finaly using your determination on something you want to do, even if it is to prove something to yourself. Though just at the end of that video we could all see you had changed from the scared kid to the real matt :3

Comments

[guiltyshirts]

I honestly teared up watching the video. I just want to give MC the biggest hug ever, and you too.

*hug*

[pink_sheep]

Mega hugs..

[scaredykitty]

Oh, sister will read this, but that's ok. Generally. Except when she tells mother.

I finished high school, but barely. My grades steadily declined because I just didn't care. I'm pretty sure I was starting to be depressed back then, but I didn't realize that. Then college came.

I'd never go to college if I realized how bad that was going to be. I mean, I want to finish college eventually. But just the whole course structure, and classes, I just couldn't do it. I holed up in my dorm and wanted to sleep forever.

These days are slightly better, but I still feel like sleeping forever. I live with a guy 16 years older then me, and while I love him, I'm terrified of losing the house from lack of money. I can't find a job, and we barely are able to pay for the property taxes or utilities off of his disabilities money. The only real reason I ever want to wake up is because I don't want to upset my sister or my husband. I'd often idly daydream about just hm disappearing, but I don't want to hurt my sister or husband at all. So I just keep going.

Writing keeps me distracted. Hearing that someone, no matter if I've never seen them, likes what I'm writing, is awesome. It makes me want to write more. You can't write more if you disappear, ghost writers are not literal.

MC, you have a job and people who adore you. Things are scary, no matter what made them scary. But us random internet people who you may never meet indeed would be very sad to see anything bad happen to you. I keep putting off sending you something because I fear my own abilities at knitting. But I will knit a thing and send it as soon as possible.

This got incredibly rambling towards the end, ergh. Sorry. Sister, I know it's hard, but please don't tell momma. She'll get upset, and that just makes things worse.

Note, I'm terrible at making other people feel better when I'm not giving them baked goods. Sorry.

[lurkey_dfw]

As someone who has dropped out of college twice now, I can tell you it isn't for everyone, and there's nothing wrong with that. You're a great writer and what's more a nice person, and that's important.

[scaredykitty]

Thanks. I just worry that in this day and age, without a college education...hn. Edit - This is something mother harangues me about though, so meh.

[lurkey_dfw]

Yeah, I totally understand, my parents aren't too thrilled either, but it's not a parent's job to determine what's best for you, only you can decide that. There are jobs that will hire without college education (and not to mention, having a degree doesn't always guarantee you a job, especially nowadays)

That said, I can see why it would be a worry, and you're deserving of respect if you do choose to go back, or if you don't. You gotta do what's right for you :3

[scaredykitty]

Yeah, it doesn't mean a job, notably with husband having two bachelors, and nothing permanent. Blergh.

I will continue to write and do...writey things.

[pink_sheep]

Honestly college really isn't what it's cracked up to be, it's abit different compared to America here. But it sucks all the same
My parents kept telling me it would get better in college. It never did, I'm still lonely with no one to talk to and I'm struggling with everything. I want to drop out but I am no good at anything else.

I know here it makes no difference if you are to in college, in fact big supermarkets love you if your not, they are happy to train you up to be a supervisor or a manager sometimes send you to college through them but its only for a month or two to pass a unit of business or something..

[nekofan]

I don't really know what to say about the video... It's amazing and quite couragous to tell people who he's never met about his past, espcially after he obviously wanted to keep it all quiet for a long time.

I wish I could give him a hug, but I feel like it can only go up from here. Now, a weight is off your chest. It's out in the open and people have taken it upon themselves and thought.
Just keep ya chin up and move forward. That's all there is to it, even though it may be hard.

*sings just keep swimming over and over*

EDIT: This applies to anyone who is having troubles. Think it can only get better, because it's pretty hard to get worse. Focus on the positives, no matter how hard it is. <3 Love you all. Feel good. Live life.

[damnreddit]

Without going into too much of my own life ...

Last December, I was 40 pounds over my ideal weight and starting to suffer health consequences from how incredibly poorly I had been treating myself. i knew I had to change, but I didn't know how. It seemed far too big a task to take on, and I was so upset at how I had let myself down in the past. The wonderful, wonderful man I live with told me something I have not forgotten and which I think is the key to making any positive change for yourself:

The past is gone. It doesn't matter. The future doesn't matter. All that matters is now, and being who you want to be right now. And I've done that, more or less. As a result, the 40 pounds are gone (among other positive changes), and I'm so much closer to being who I want to be, in what I do and how I act, every day. You will do it, too. The only and I mean the only thing that it requires is to love yourself just enough to make good decisions for yourself just often enough -- and hold to that thought when things are hard. You already know what you want those decisions to be and how you want to live. So just live that way, one moment at a time.

(Oh, and if you're making health/nutrition/fitness changes, never ever ever pay a second's attention to anything your brain throws at you when you're hungry. It's never worth listening to. One piece of advice I wish someone had given me. ;) )

[(Anonymous)]

I cried during that video. MC, just because you droped out doesn't mean you shouldn't be a role model. All the things you do are amazing. I respect you for having to deal with all the pain and still being able to sound so happy and funny when recording. Watching your vids mean alot to me and watching you helps with all the pain of having no friends and badly stuggling with money. Just keep being happy and postive you can do it! You have all of our support, don't forget that! <3 Thanks so much for everthing MC! :D

[voufreail]

MC said in his video that he shouldn't be a role model because of what he was but in my mind he is and always will be; he raises money for children in zeldathon and encourages others to in live streams (the kids at ChildsPlay probably have lots of different games because of Him, Kurt and very kind others) He is also trying to change, that takes a lot of determination which is good for people that watch him to learn. He has gotten through depression which gives people hope that they can, too. His outside is happy, funny and kind which are traits that we all have but some don't use.

I'm positive that this isn't all I have to say about MC. I will end it here though, MC you are a kind funny person, passionate about anything you do and determined while you do it because of everything about you I would not be ashamed to say this is a man I look up to. If you do hope to change I and many others will be behind you encouraging you every step of the way.

MC you are beloved in alot of places and I'm glad you see it. We all love you as well <3

Keep doing what you enjoy and we will be right behind you :D

[damnreddit]

It's unfortunate that depression and low self-esteem so distorts how you see yourself, because all of that is true. And MC, assuming you're reading this (you'd better be reading this! ;) ) -- do you really think you'd think poorly of someone who'd dropped out of school and then gone on to do everything you have done, what with your charity work, keeping up a Youtube channel, and so on? I doubt you would. It's just because it's you, and you're privy to everything that is inside your head and your head -- well, let's put it bluntly, when you are depressed, the inside of your own head is your worst enemy. Stay out of there, stay in the present, and resist the temptation ever to judge yourself for good or for bad. Just do. It helps.

[pink_sheep]

Inside your head is your worst enemy..
I so agree..
But it's a extremely powerful one..

[lurkey_dfw]

I could ramble on about this if I let myself but I'll try to keep it (relatively) short.

For all that you've been through MC, from what I can tell, you're actually doing very well for yourself. You have friends, wonderful friends. You not only moved out of your home, your comfort zone, but you are also supporting yourself in that. You've organized events to raise money (and lots of it!) for charity. And what's more, you have the courage to tell your fans your life story, to be honest with them and make them think, to be honest with yourself and to try to change who you are to be a better you.

Now, I'm no expert, but you have accomplished things even people with the most average or easy lives haven't been able to say they've done. Let alone someone who has dealt with abuse, or lost someone close to them. You haven't given up. Ok, you didn't finish high school, so your weight isn't what you want it to be. You're working on it, and even though you're not there yet, that doesn't mean you shouldn't still be proud of yourself as you are now, because really, you deserve to be.

(Also as an aside, I think you're awesome Pink, you have a heart of gold, you're friendly, and I hope you keep up on your positive outlook because you deserve to be happy. As does everyone else here. You're a wonderful community of people, really, I could hardly be more proud to be a member of anything than I am with you guys. I love you all <3)

[syfy_girl]

(Please excuse my poor attempt at putting thoughts into words)

MC, you say you aren't a good role model because you dropped out of high school. But being a good role model and having a GED are not mutually exclusive events. And in the same breath, just because someone has completed high school does not mean they are a good role model. I know and know of so many people who went through high school and completed college and have either nothing to show for it or are not the...nicest around. Looking at all you have accomplished and all you do for others is what makes you an amazing role model. You help children and make people's days better. And just the fact that you are planning on getting your GED now shows that you are driven and you wont let things that happened in the past affect your life for the worse.

I wish you the best of luck in all that you do and plan to do.

And thank you for all you have done <3

[pagat]

Oh. MC.

I'm shaking listening to this.

My mother was verbally and emotionally abusive. She was an alcoholic. My parents were divorced. Hiding away in my bedroom to get away from her was all I had. I was an honor student too. I dropped out of high school too. I don't even know what to say.

I don't feel ready to move on with my own life, yet. But I hope this helps you heal. Because you are a role model. You're sweet and funny and always trying to help others. Please don't believe you're not good enough because of a little piece of paper. You did what you had to to survive. Depression is a beast. And how much have you given to help other people? What's a degree next to all the people who you've helped, through your community, through charity?

We love you, MC. You deserve to be called a role model. Even if you don't believe it, it's true. I hope your healing process goes smooth. I hope you know how much support you have. Be safe. And give yourself a little credit, man! You're kicking life's ass as far as I'm concerned.

[theropod]

Oh MC. I can only offer internet hugs and tell you that we're all here for you, as you can plainly see by the messages we've left you here.

I've never really had an abusive parent (aside from my brother's father but that not the same as your own father I suppose?}. I had an absent father, he left the moment he heard my mum was pregnant. Thinking about that is enough to make me want to cry or kill the git depending on what day it is. The bullying I can full relate to however. I was bulled all through my seven years of primary school and several years of high school. I changed high school at one point and somehow the bullying was even worse there. Before it was just words and while those were extremely painful to hear, I wasn't having people trying to set my hair on fire or punching me in the face a my old school. I still have a scar above my eye for that one.

My little brother was bullied too, and we knew, we tried to do something about it. We didn't realise how bad it was though. It got so bad that at one point he tried to kill himself. Things are getting better now we've moved him to a new school but he's still depressed and he's stays with his dad despite pretty much hating it there. He said he'd feel guilty for moving back with mum. He's very intelligent too, in a whole lot of advanced classes. But now because of everything that's happened he doesn't think he's smart at all, barely studies. He only had one exam this year, for advanced maths, barely studied. I don't know if its because his cockiness has began to return or if its because he still thinks he's not smart enough for it. He said the exam was easy, so I don't know. He worries me so much and hearing your story kind of reminded me of his. Maybe I should point him towards your channel. You're doing so well, talking about this, helping others through charity work, being such a sweetheart. Maybe it would help, seeing someone similar working through it all. I don't know. I'm rambling really, probably should just not say anything but the internet hugs part.

Take care MC. You're a wonderful guy.

[pink_sheep]

Oh dear god.. I got bullied at school but never to that extreme I almost got beat up and punched on one occasion but it was mostly just segregation and verbal I got.. It was bad I wish I moved school but that ment telling my parents and I have kept up a huge lie of how great high school was and my friends when it is and always has been a lie..
I hope your brother manages to pull throught.. he is a smart cookie to get into advance math I struggled with low level stuff due to my dyslexia and plain stupidity. I would imagine someone like mc or any mindcrackers is good someone to aspire towards and look up too even if its just getting good grades I wishi had mindcrackers and here when I was in school studying rather than my last year of school..

[theropod]

-hugs- It helps to have a role model. I don't think I really have any, except maybe some writers? I'm not sure.

[crystalllized]

I cried. I'll tell you on Skype, of course, but my voice here with the others, it means more, somehow. I cried because, in a way, I realized how damn lucky I've been in my life and how that's why people hold you up as a role model - some of us have so much goodness in our lives and we don't turn them into anything half as good as what you do. I graduated college but I can never go back to school now - that graduation barely happened. You took the things that happened to you and now you're one of the greatest forces for good in the community, and that's why people want to be like you - we want to turn adversity into magic as well as you did, somehow.

I love you, MC, and consider you one of my friends who is most special in this world. School is just one thing, and health is another, and if I know you at all you're going to own both of those things as soon as it's even possible. ,3

[isi]

For what it's worth, MC, that giving, creative person you want to be is already who you are to many of your fans, myself included. That all came from you. I don't see the obese depressed dropout, but rather someone who's been through some rough times and has had some emotional and physical troubles because of it, but I'm not going to judge you or think any less of you because of it, same as I wouldn't judge anyone else who's had similar struggles. It's not your fault. And despite all of that, you've went on to do wonderful things, and that's why we like you; that's why people keep watching your videos. And now you're doing more wonderful things. It takes a lot to commit to bettering yourself in ways you know how to change. The past is the past and you can't do anything about it, but you can change things now to feel more internally consistent with who you want to be, and you've already started to do that. I think that's fantastic. And even though you said you don't ask for support, just remember that you don't have to go through it alone-- no one should have to-- and that you'll find plenty of it from the community should you need it. And also remember...

You're going to win. <3

[kappa77]

I have to agree with everyone else that, MC, you are a role model, even if it's only based on a small part of your life.
You make people smile and laugh on a daily basis. You've made a hobby into your job. You've donated thousands of dollars to various charities. All this, before you've turned 20. That is an amazing accomplishment and enough for me to consider you a role model.

Even after you've posted this video, I still consider you one, because you have just proven how strong you are. I know that if I had to go through what you did, I wouldn't make it. There's no way I'd have the strength to deal with that, but you did and now you're stronger and you want to improve yourself. At multiple points in my (short) life, I've wanted to change something about myself or my life for the better, but I never had the initiative. however, maybe now, I'll finally get off my ass and do something about it.
Oh, and remember,
We're all here for you, MC.