Mc gamer - personal video/ vlog

[pink_sheep]

Sorry for posting this speel here. I know mc looks and I felt the need to.. Meh I don't know ._.


Here it is if you have'nt seen it..
http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=nUbiykZLoQU&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DnUbiykZLoQU%26feature%3Dplayer_embedded

I'm posting this here because I know you look mc and I know this is just one of the communities that love you to pieces :)


You already are that person, maybe not outside but deffinately inside, I myself am dyslexic it really affected my grades I went from a straight A student in my standard grades and went to failing in my highers as quick as a few weeks. Now these where the exam that made or failed your future plans, my plans were shattered the job I wanted I could never do, I never had support to accomplish what I truely wanted bt now I'm doing graphic design and struggling with everything all over again.

Untill I found this little haven.

, I was ready to leave school I only stayed because my parents would have murdered me, all I can say is its lovely to hear about your friends, they can obviously really help, I never had friends so I've actually struggled throught my dyslexia, depression and my self hate ever day alone.
It's kinda funny cause I'm in the oppiset boat to you... In skinny and underweight and I would love to actually gain a few pounds.. darn you metabolism!

I hope you see this. But you are indeed a role model, just the fact you've faced your deamon is something great. So what your a highschool dropout? You have a fabulous job, and you have some of the most lovely fans I've met from any youtuber. I wish I could go back and change my chances though its frankly impossible. I passed even if it was scraping a pass.. Wich destroyed my university dreams

I can only wish you all the best, your love for entertaining is lovely, we can all see it comes from your heart. Every day your videos help me when I have had a bad day. Know this about you just makes me more determined to beat my own daemons. Hopefully I can. It's a long rode but if I've got the live streams hey, i will survive..

I'm glad your finaly using your determination on something you want to do, even if it is to prove something to yourself. Though just at the end of that video we could all see you had changed from the scared kid to the real matt :3

Comments

[scaredykitty]

Oh, sister will read this, but that's ok. Generally. Except when she tells mother.

I finished high school, but barely. My grades steadily declined because I just didn't care. I'm pretty sure I was starting to be depressed back then, but I didn't realize that. Then college came.

I'd never go to college if I realized how bad that was going to be. I mean, I want to finish college eventually. But just the whole course structure, and classes, I just couldn't do it. I holed up in my dorm and wanted to sleep forever.

These days are slightly better, but I still feel like sleeping forever. I live with a guy 16 years older then me, and while I love him, I'm terrified of losing the house from lack of money. I can't find a job, and we barely are able to pay for the property taxes or utilities off of his disabilities money. The only real reason I ever want to wake up is because I don't want to upset my sister or my husband. I'd often idly daydream about just hm disappearing, but I don't want to hurt my sister or husband at all. So I just keep going.

Writing keeps me distracted. Hearing that someone, no matter if I've never seen them, likes what I'm writing, is awesome. It makes me want to write more. You can't write more if you disappear, ghost writers are not literal.

MC, you have a job and people who adore you. Things are scary, no matter what made them scary. But us random internet people who you may never meet indeed would be very sad to see anything bad happen to you. I keep putting off sending you something because I fear my own abilities at knitting. But I will knit a thing and send it as soon as possible.

This got incredibly rambling towards the end, ergh. Sorry. Sister, I know it's hard, but please don't tell momma. She'll get upset, and that just makes things worse.

Note, I'm terrible at making other people feel better when I'm not giving them baked goods. Sorry.

[lurkey_dfw]

As someone who has dropped out of college twice now, I can tell you it isn't for everyone, and there's nothing wrong with that. You're a great writer and what's more a nice person, and that's important.

[scaredykitty]

Thanks. I just worry that in this day and age, without a college education...hn. Edit - This is something mother harangues me about though, so meh.

[lurkey_dfw]

Yeah, I totally understand, my parents aren't too thrilled either, but it's not a parent's job to determine what's best for you, only you can decide that. There are jobs that will hire without college education (and not to mention, having a degree doesn't always guarantee you a job, especially nowadays)

That said, I can see why it would be a worry, and you're deserving of respect if you do choose to go back, or if you don't. You gotta do what's right for you :3

[scaredykitty]

Yeah, it doesn't mean a job, notably with husband having two bachelors, and nothing permanent. Blergh.

I will continue to write and do...writey things.

[pink_sheep]

Honestly college really isn't what it's cracked up to be, it's abit different compared to America here. But it sucks all the same
My parents kept telling me it would get better in college. It never did, I'm still lonely with no one to talk to and I'm struggling with everything. I want to drop out but I am no good at anything else.

I know here it makes no difference if you are to in college, in fact big supermarkets love you if your not, they are happy to train you up to be a supervisor or a manager sometimes send you to college through them but its only for a month or two to pass a unit of business or something..