Anxiety [Nebtho]

[its_catbug]

I wrote this a few days ago after having a pretty bad anxiety attack... Having anxiety really sucks, and it's a common thing for me, which sucks even more, but writing helps. I wasn't going to post this, but I'm making myself since I haven't posted anything in a while and feel bad about it... It's rather short and probably isn't the best, but having it just sit in my desk wasn't doing it any good, so.

Enjoy :]



Gravel crunched under Etho’s feet as he ran up the path to his front door. Thunder cracked and lightning lit up the navy blue sky, causing shadows to dart across the lawn only to disappear a moment after. A steady downpour of rain pattered against the ground and plastered Etho’s clothes to his skin. Out of everything he could have forgotten to bring to work, it had to be his umbrella. He nearly tripped on the cement stairs before digging around in his pocket for his keys. He pushed his way through the front door and sighed with relief, the cold air prickled his skin. Etho pulled off his wet jacket and flicked on the lights. A familiar figure sat on his couch, unmoving.

“Nebris, what’re you doing here?”

Etho dropped his bag onto the floor and moved closer. Nebris looked over his shoulder and tried faking a smile. His face was pale and his hands were clenched together, resting on his shaky knees. His bottom lip was bloody from biting it, but he wiped it away with the back of his hand after Etho expressed a look of concern.

“Are you okay?” Etho sat down next to Nebris.

“I don’t know, I just--I thought it was over--but, now I can’t stop thinking about it.”

“Thinking about…” Etho hesitated.

“Yeah,” Nebris shook his head and scrunched his shirt sleeves in his fists. “I don’t know what to do anymore.”

“Is there anything I can do?”

“Just, tell me it’ll be okay.”

Nebris’s voice quavered when he said it, nearly causing Etho’s heart to drop. Etho wrapped his arms around him and tried to comfort him. Nebris took a deep breath in and gripped Etho’s shoulders, leaving purplish marks where his fingers dug into his shirt.

“It will be,” Etho responded quietly.



I'll try to get something longer out soon, promise ;\

Comments

[giggleworthy]

anxiety sucks. i get attacks at least once a week, so i completely get this. if you need someone, im here

[its_catbug]

Hehe, you too eh? Yeah, having anxiety is no fun. When the feeling goes away or you can manage to stop it, it's such a relief though :)

[(Anonymous)]

I have anxiety too, and it's comforting to know that I'm not alone. I've learned to control it, but the attacks I can't controls are the worst ones.

Hang in there, you're not alone <3

[its_catbug]

Yay, mini support group in the comments :)

[linkcam15]

I get anxiety attacks not very often (whether it's a panic attack or a result from trauma, idk) but when I do it's horrible. I can't stop imagining a bunch of things that could have happened. I got one yesterday, and it was so bad I stayed home from school today.

[its_catbug]

I know that feel :/ I used to have to skip school frequently last year. Thankfully things are a bit better this year, but yeah. Anxiety can go die in a fire >:)