Remember Us Chpt. 5
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mindcrackloveHere we go with chapter 5, in which Kurt needs to talk, and Zisteau explains some stuff.
Guude's POV
I was about to head home when I noticed Beef walking towards the portal.
"Beef!" I call out running towards him.
"Hey Guude"
"So how was Kurt doing?"
"You should be more worried about me, I just got my butt handed to me."
"Let me guess, Kurt's still a thousand times better at that game than you are."
"Oh yeah. He said Indeed though."
"Really?"
"Yeah, but he didn't remember actually ever saying it though."
"Oh"
"By the way, he asked if him and Z were a couple."
"You told him, didn't you?"
"I felt like I had to, it wasn't a simple who is Z to me question. I told him the truth."
"well.... at least he knows."
"Yeah. I gotta head home I'll see you later." Beef says walking through the portal.
Zisteau's POV
I had just finished dinner and Kurt hadn't come up yet. I better go check on him.
I walk to his room. I try to open it but its locked. I knock.
"You ok Kurt?" I ask
"No" Kurt replies
"Do you want to talk?"
"Sure..." I hear and the door opens.
I walk in and sit on the bed next to Kurt, where he had dropped back onto the bed. I see he had the picture on his lap.
"So what's wrong?" I ask
"I just don't understand." Kurt replies
"Don't understand what?"
"That you are my boyfriend and I don't even remember it, or anything.... it's just frustrating."
"Who told you about us?"
"I saw this picture and I saw the ones in the hallway. I got curious so I asked Beef about it."
"Oh.... uh.... what did he tell you?"
"He said that we were inseparable and did everything together. He also said we were together for almost a year. He told me I had been in a comma for four months. I also asked how you were during it, he said you were an emotional wreck and spent most of your time siting holding my hand."
"He told you quiet a bit"
"Yeah...."
"But that's not everything."
"What?"
"Well, for starters, you were and still are the best thing to ever happen to me." I grab his hand, gently twining our fingers together. "I was an emotional wreck, without you I was nothing. Our one year anniversary is two weeks from today. And, that even if you never love me again I will always love you."
"I really wish I could remember. I'm so sorry Z, I don't know if I love you. maybe on day I will, but right now I just don't know. I'm so sorry."
"It's ok Kurt, I understand. can I just have one last kiss?"
"Ummm..... sure." Kurt says
"Your sure about this?"
"Um yes"
I slowly move forward, gently pressing my lips to his, kissing him softly.
Kurt's POV
I hesitantly kiss back, for Z's sake. Not long after it started, I pulled away and looked at Z, he looks really happy, but I don't feel that spark, I don't feel like I love him. I don't think I do. I really hope this doesn't make things weird between us.
Zisteau's POV
Kurt kisses back hesitantly. It was so nice, I had missed this so much. This was probably the last kiss between us. Kurt pulls away, not long after.
"I'm sorry Kurt.... We can forget this even happened."
"I... I just really don't want things to be weird between us."
"Me either."
"I'm gonna go for a walk..... I'm not really hungry" Kurt says getting up and leaving.
I feel bad, but I just wanted one last kiss. I just wanted to feel his touch one last time. I feel broken..... but maybe it's for the best. I send a message to Vechs on my wrist COM.
(Zisteau-Z/Vechs-V)
Z: come to Kurt's
V: why? what's wrong?
Z: I just need someone. I'm in the guest room in the basement
V: k be there soon.
Vechs shows up a few minutes later, concern and annoyance obvious on his face.
"What's wrong Z?" Vechs asks
"I... just.... I" I say not able to form a sentence.
"I can't help if you don't tell me what's wrong."
"Kurt doesn't love me anymore."
"How do you know that?"
"He told me, he let me have one last kiss, but I could tell he didn't enjoy it. he took wolfie and went for a walk."
".....Oh...."
"I don't know what to do Vechs, I love him so much, but he doesn't love me back. I don't know if he ever will. I won't ever be able to stop loving him." I say bawling.
Vechs pulls me into a hug.
"It's ok pigderp, everything will be ok."
"But he doesn't love me like he used to. I'll never be able to cuddle or kiss him ever again. I dont just want him, I need him in my life. I'm a complete and total wreck without him. I'm nothing with out him."
"I know Z, I know. But, we will get through this. Hopefully one day he will love you again."
"I hope so Vechs"
"Me to pigderp"
Kurt's POV
I whistled for Wolfie to follow as I walked out the door. I stopped remembering my sword. I went back to my room and grabbed it. I head back out the door, Wolfie close behind.
I just walked around for a while. I really needed to talk to somebody. I wonder if Guude is around town hall.
I head that way and walk into the building. I look around but can't find him. I wonder if Beef is home. I look at my wrist COM. I wonder how I message people.
I press the envelope button and there was a list of people. I don't recognize most of the names. I found VintageBeef towards the bottom of the list. I clicked his name.
(Kurt-K/Beef-B)
K: are you home? I really need to talk
B: yeah, do you know how to get here?
K: no
B: I'll meet you at spawn town
K: thanks
I take a seat on a bench near town hall and whistle to wolfie who is wandering off. He obediently comes and lays down by my feet. I pet him and he barks and licks my hand.
Beef steps out of the portal thing and walks over.
"You want to head to my base?" Beef asks
"Yeah, Z is at mine."
Beef looks at me curiously "....Ok, it's faster if we go through the portal."
"Ok"
"I'll lead the way"
I whistle for wolfie to follow as we make our way towards the portal. when I step through its super hot.
We walk for a while through a small tunnel and through another portal to a tropical jungle place.
"Wow.... this place is amazing" I say, looking around at the different buildings.
"Thanks, I've been working on this for a while. Come over this way, my house is just over there." beef says, pointing towards a large house on a secluded island.
We make it to the house and walk in side and sit on the couch. Wolfie jumps up and sits beside me.
"So, what's bugging you?" Beef asks
"Z told me more about our relationship and how I was the best thing that ever happened to him, and that even if I never loved him again he would always love me. Then he asked me for one last kiss. I knew how much it meant to him so I agreed. He kissed me and I kissed back, but I don't really feel anything towards him. I know it breaks his heart, but I told him that I don't love him any more and I don't know if I ever will, and he told me he will always love me."
"Oh"
"I just don't know what to do...."
"You did what you should have done, you told him how you really felt."
"I know,but...." I say, but stop not knowing what to say.
"Well Kurt, we will just have to see how this plays out."
"Yeah...." I say with a sigh.
We sit in a comfortable silence, watching the sun start to dip below the horizon, casting beautiful colors on the ocean and scrips the sky.
"Its gonna be dark soon, you want me to walk you back to spawn town?"
"Yeah, thanks" I say and Beef leads me back through his village and through the portal.
We make it back to spawn town.
"I'll see you later, just call or message if you need me."
"Thanks Beef" I say and turn to leave but, an arrow goes by my head.
I pull out my sword and one shot the skeleton.
"Wow, what is on that sword?" Beef asks, staring at me incredulously
"Um.. here" I say handing him the sword to look at.
"Wow this is impressive where did you get it from?"
"I guess Z got it for me last year for my birthday."
"Oh, that makes sense."
"Well I'll see you later" I say and walk off towards my house, sword in hand.
I head in side and towards my room. I pass by Z's and hear crying and someone else talking. I walk into the room and see Vechs sitting beside a very upset Zisteau.
"Hey, I'm back" I say
"Ok, there's leftovers in the fridge if you wanted to eat something." Vechs says.
"Thanks, but I'm not hungry. Are you going to be ok Z?" I ask concerned
"I... I don't know" Z responds
"I'm sorry Z. I really am." I say, knowing its my fault he's upset.
"It's ok Kurt." Z says
"Well I'm gonna head to bed just come get me if you need anything. Night guys" I say before walking to my room and putting my pj bottoms on and sitting on my bed.
I look at the picture again, still really confused about how to feel. I'm brought out of my thoughts by a knock on my door.
"Come in" I say
Vechs comes in and sits on the bed. He glances at the picture in my hands.
"I remember when that picture was taken, I'm actually the one that took it. It was four months into the relationship and Z insisted you take a picture."
"I was wondering about it."
"Yeah, you two were so happy."
"That's what it looks like."
"I know you probably won't want to talk about it but, I just want to know how you actually feel about Z."
"Well, when he kissed me I didn't feel anything but, seeing him sad makes me a little sad. I'm still having trouble with everything because I can't remember anything. I know Z and I were together before but I just don't know."
"That's understandable. I know Z seems like an emotional wreck but, he will be better. It will just take some time. He waited four month for you and now he can't have you."
"I feel really bad.... its my fault he is so upset."
"It's ok Kurt, he will get over it, eventually." Vechs says, trying to be reassuring. "By the way do you mind if I stay here tonight, it's dark and I don't have my sword or any thing." Vechs adds.
"Sure... you can sleep on the couch." I say, getting up and grabbing an extra blanket from the closet and handing it to him.
"Thank. night Kurt."
"Night Vechs."
Vechs leaves the room and I lay down. Wolfie comes over and lays down beside me. I slowly start to fall asleep, many thing plaguing my mind, but mainly Zisteau.
Guude's POV
I was about to head home when I noticed Beef walking towards the portal.
"Beef!" I call out running towards him.
"Hey Guude"
"So how was Kurt doing?"
"You should be more worried about me, I just got my butt handed to me."
"Let me guess, Kurt's still a thousand times better at that game than you are."
"Oh yeah. He said Indeed though."
"Really?"
"Yeah, but he didn't remember actually ever saying it though."
"Oh"
"By the way, he asked if him and Z were a couple."
"You told him, didn't you?"
"I felt like I had to, it wasn't a simple who is Z to me question. I told him the truth."
"well.... at least he knows."
"Yeah. I gotta head home I'll see you later." Beef says walking through the portal.
Zisteau's POV
I had just finished dinner and Kurt hadn't come up yet. I better go check on him.
I walk to his room. I try to open it but its locked. I knock.
"You ok Kurt?" I ask
"No" Kurt replies
"Do you want to talk?"
"Sure..." I hear and the door opens.
I walk in and sit on the bed next to Kurt, where he had dropped back onto the bed. I see he had the picture on his lap.
"So what's wrong?" I ask
"I just don't understand." Kurt replies
"Don't understand what?"
"That you are my boyfriend and I don't even remember it, or anything.... it's just frustrating."
"Who told you about us?"
"I saw this picture and I saw the ones in the hallway. I got curious so I asked Beef about it."
"Oh.... uh.... what did he tell you?"
"He said that we were inseparable and did everything together. He also said we were together for almost a year. He told me I had been in a comma for four months. I also asked how you were during it, he said you were an emotional wreck and spent most of your time siting holding my hand."
"He told you quiet a bit"
"Yeah...."
"But that's not everything."
"What?"
"Well, for starters, you were and still are the best thing to ever happen to me." I grab his hand, gently twining our fingers together. "I was an emotional wreck, without you I was nothing. Our one year anniversary is two weeks from today. And, that even if you never love me again I will always love you."
"I really wish I could remember. I'm so sorry Z, I don't know if I love you. maybe on day I will, but right now I just don't know. I'm so sorry."
"It's ok Kurt, I understand. can I just have one last kiss?"
"Ummm..... sure." Kurt says
"Your sure about this?"
"Um yes"
I slowly move forward, gently pressing my lips to his, kissing him softly.
Kurt's POV
I hesitantly kiss back, for Z's sake. Not long after it started, I pulled away and looked at Z, he looks really happy, but I don't feel that spark, I don't feel like I love him. I don't think I do. I really hope this doesn't make things weird between us.
Zisteau's POV
Kurt kisses back hesitantly. It was so nice, I had missed this so much. This was probably the last kiss between us. Kurt pulls away, not long after.
"I'm sorry Kurt.... We can forget this even happened."
"I... I just really don't want things to be weird between us."
"Me either."
"I'm gonna go for a walk..... I'm not really hungry" Kurt says getting up and leaving.
I feel bad, but I just wanted one last kiss. I just wanted to feel his touch one last time. I feel broken..... but maybe it's for the best. I send a message to Vechs on my wrist COM.
(Zisteau-Z/Vechs-V)
Z: come to Kurt's
V: why? what's wrong?
Z: I just need someone. I'm in the guest room in the basement
V: k be there soon.
Vechs shows up a few minutes later, concern and annoyance obvious on his face.
"What's wrong Z?" Vechs asks
"I... just.... I" I say not able to form a sentence.
"I can't help if you don't tell me what's wrong."
"Kurt doesn't love me anymore."
"How do you know that?"
"He told me, he let me have one last kiss, but I could tell he didn't enjoy it. he took wolfie and went for a walk."
".....Oh...."
"I don't know what to do Vechs, I love him so much, but he doesn't love me back. I don't know if he ever will. I won't ever be able to stop loving him." I say bawling.
Vechs pulls me into a hug.
"It's ok pigderp, everything will be ok."
"But he doesn't love me like he used to. I'll never be able to cuddle or kiss him ever again. I dont just want him, I need him in my life. I'm a complete and total wreck without him. I'm nothing with out him."
"I know Z, I know. But, we will get through this. Hopefully one day he will love you again."
"I hope so Vechs"
"Me to pigderp"
Kurt's POV
I whistled for Wolfie to follow as I walked out the door. I stopped remembering my sword. I went back to my room and grabbed it. I head back out the door, Wolfie close behind.
I just walked around for a while. I really needed to talk to somebody. I wonder if Guude is around town hall.
I head that way and walk into the building. I look around but can't find him. I wonder if Beef is home. I look at my wrist COM. I wonder how I message people.
I press the envelope button and there was a list of people. I don't recognize most of the names. I found VintageBeef towards the bottom of the list. I clicked his name.
(Kurt-K/Beef-B)
K: are you home? I really need to talk
B: yeah, do you know how to get here?
K: no
B: I'll meet you at spawn town
K: thanks
I take a seat on a bench near town hall and whistle to wolfie who is wandering off. He obediently comes and lays down by my feet. I pet him and he barks and licks my hand.
Beef steps out of the portal thing and walks over.
"You want to head to my base?" Beef asks
"Yeah, Z is at mine."
Beef looks at me curiously "....Ok, it's faster if we go through the portal."
"Ok"
"I'll lead the way"
I whistle for wolfie to follow as we make our way towards the portal. when I step through its super hot.
We walk for a while through a small tunnel and through another portal to a tropical jungle place.
"Wow.... this place is amazing" I say, looking around at the different buildings.
"Thanks, I've been working on this for a while. Come over this way, my house is just over there." beef says, pointing towards a large house on a secluded island.
We make it to the house and walk in side and sit on the couch. Wolfie jumps up and sits beside me.
"So, what's bugging you?" Beef asks
"Z told me more about our relationship and how I was the best thing that ever happened to him, and that even if I never loved him again he would always love me. Then he asked me for one last kiss. I knew how much it meant to him so I agreed. He kissed me and I kissed back, but I don't really feel anything towards him. I know it breaks his heart, but I told him that I don't love him any more and I don't know if I ever will, and he told me he will always love me."
"Oh"
"I just don't know what to do...."
"You did what you should have done, you told him how you really felt."
"I know,but...." I say, but stop not knowing what to say.
"Well Kurt, we will just have to see how this plays out."
"Yeah...." I say with a sigh.
We sit in a comfortable silence, watching the sun start to dip below the horizon, casting beautiful colors on the ocean and scrips the sky.
"Its gonna be dark soon, you want me to walk you back to spawn town?"
"Yeah, thanks" I say and Beef leads me back through his village and through the portal.
We make it back to spawn town.
"I'll see you later, just call or message if you need me."
"Thanks Beef" I say and turn to leave but, an arrow goes by my head.
I pull out my sword and one shot the skeleton.
"Wow, what is on that sword?" Beef asks, staring at me incredulously
"Um.. here" I say handing him the sword to look at.
"Wow this is impressive where did you get it from?"
"I guess Z got it for me last year for my birthday."
"Oh, that makes sense."
"Well I'll see you later" I say and walk off towards my house, sword in hand.
I head in side and towards my room. I pass by Z's and hear crying and someone else talking. I walk into the room and see Vechs sitting beside a very upset Zisteau.
"Hey, I'm back" I say
"Ok, there's leftovers in the fridge if you wanted to eat something." Vechs says.
"Thanks, but I'm not hungry. Are you going to be ok Z?" I ask concerned
"I... I don't know" Z responds
"I'm sorry Z. I really am." I say, knowing its my fault he's upset.
"It's ok Kurt." Z says
"Well I'm gonna head to bed just come get me if you need anything. Night guys" I say before walking to my room and putting my pj bottoms on and sitting on my bed.
I look at the picture again, still really confused about how to feel. I'm brought out of my thoughts by a knock on my door.
"Come in" I say
Vechs comes in and sits on the bed. He glances at the picture in my hands.
"I remember when that picture was taken, I'm actually the one that took it. It was four months into the relationship and Z insisted you take a picture."
"I was wondering about it."
"Yeah, you two were so happy."
"That's what it looks like."
"I know you probably won't want to talk about it but, I just want to know how you actually feel about Z."
"Well, when he kissed me I didn't feel anything but, seeing him sad makes me a little sad. I'm still having trouble with everything because I can't remember anything. I know Z and I were together before but I just don't know."
"That's understandable. I know Z seems like an emotional wreck but, he will be better. It will just take some time. He waited four month for you and now he can't have you."
"I feel really bad.... its my fault he is so upset."
"It's ok Kurt, he will get over it, eventually." Vechs says, trying to be reassuring. "By the way do you mind if I stay here tonight, it's dark and I don't have my sword or any thing." Vechs adds.
"Sure... you can sleep on the couch." I say, getting up and grabbing an extra blanket from the closet and handing it to him.
"Thank. night Kurt."
"Night Vechs."
Vechs leaves the room and I lay down. Wolfie comes over and lays down beside me. I slowly start to fall asleep, many thing plaguing my mind, but mainly Zisteau.
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