Nebtho: Part of him
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mindcrackloveJust something I wrote to help with my writers block. (It turned out aa bit longer than I expected)
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Nebris glanced at Etho's home and continued walking. Memories of good times, of long talks, of games played made him smile, even as his brain told him it was over. Why had he ever let himself get close enough to his enemy to get hurt? The kind of hurt that made his heart ache and yearn to run back. He knew Etho would forgive him and take him back, but he wouldn't have the strength to leave again. If only he had stayed away from the start, then he wouldn't have had to choose.
He didn't know why he always took this path, there were other, faster, ways home. Maybe it was because part of him still thought he made the wrong choice. Surely, his job was not worth the pain that tore at his heart every night as he struggled to fall asleep. Maybe he could convince his commander that this enemy was different, like he couldn't so many months ago. But then he would be accused of going soft, of falling for the enemy's tricks.
Nebris stopped and turned around, maybe if he just saw his face . . .no. He should leave now before he did something he would regret, but his feet kept walking and his eyes peered hopefully in the windows.
"Never regret what once made you smile." Behind him he felt two gentle arms wrap around his waist. Etho's voice was soft, ghosting over his ear and his heart leapt at the sound. He relaxed into it. "I'll always wait for you." He felt the warmth of a kiss on his neck, then it was all gone.
The cold air rushed to fill the void. Around him the night was silent, at once the stars were brighter and forest darker. He shuddered. He would have thought it all a vivid dream if it weren't for warmth on his neck, lingering. He lifted his hand to it, wanting to preserve all the heat.
His chest tightened, he turned and continued walking. Part of him hoping that Etho would just come back and hold him, the rest knowing that it was his decision alone and Etho wouldn't interfere no matter what he chose. Etho would respect his choice even as it tore at him. How could he walk away when Nebris could barely stand?
He knew if he turned now he could still see Etho's retreating form and he knew that if he just spoke up, Etho would be at his side in an instant. He didn't dare look. A single tear slid down his cheek, calmly betraying the whirlwind of thoughts that tore him apart inside.
Nebris vowed to take a different route home.
(but part of him knew he would always return)
(and maybe, someday, it would be for good)
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I had to leave those last two lines because otherwise posting this would kill me
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Nebris glanced at Etho's home and continued walking. Memories of good times, of long talks, of games played made him smile, even as his brain told him it was over. Why had he ever let himself get close enough to his enemy to get hurt? The kind of hurt that made his heart ache and yearn to run back. He knew Etho would forgive him and take him back, but he wouldn't have the strength to leave again. If only he had stayed away from the start, then he wouldn't have had to choose.
He didn't know why he always took this path, there were other, faster, ways home. Maybe it was because part of him still thought he made the wrong choice. Surely, his job was not worth the pain that tore at his heart every night as he struggled to fall asleep. Maybe he could convince his commander that this enemy was different, like he couldn't so many months ago. But then he would be accused of going soft, of falling for the enemy's tricks.
Nebris stopped and turned around, maybe if he just saw his face . . .no. He should leave now before he did something he would regret, but his feet kept walking and his eyes peered hopefully in the windows.
"Never regret what once made you smile." Behind him he felt two gentle arms wrap around his waist. Etho's voice was soft, ghosting over his ear and his heart leapt at the sound. He relaxed into it. "I'll always wait for you." He felt the warmth of a kiss on his neck, then it was all gone.
The cold air rushed to fill the void. Around him the night was silent, at once the stars were brighter and forest darker. He shuddered. He would have thought it all a vivid dream if it weren't for warmth on his neck, lingering. He lifted his hand to it, wanting to preserve all the heat.
His chest tightened, he turned and continued walking. Part of him hoping that Etho would just come back and hold him, the rest knowing that it was his decision alone and Etho wouldn't interfere no matter what he chose. Etho would respect his choice even as it tore at him. How could he walk away when Nebris could barely stand?
He knew if he turned now he could still see Etho's retreating form and he knew that if he just spoke up, Etho would be at his side in an instant. He didn't dare look. A single tear slid down his cheek, calmly betraying the whirlwind of thoughts that tore him apart inside.
Nebris vowed to take a different route home.
(but part of him knew he would always return)
(and maybe, someday, it would be for good)
~~~
I had to leave those last two lines because otherwise posting this would kill me
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Date: Monday, July 7th, 2014 09:25 pm (UTC)Yay for no more writers block! Hope more of this comes our way soon!
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Date: Monday, July 7th, 2014 10:17 pm (UTC)Thanks
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Date: Tuesday, July 8th, 2014 10:14 am (UTC)My NebTho feelsssss ;-;
why must you hurt my Nebtho feels?? i_i