Hhhhh man I relate to Kurt way to much so I kinda poured myself into this one.

Also, all of my SMS fics are all kinda tied in together. So if you’ve read my last fic then you may now that I never really had them kiss or say lovey dovey stuff to each other. Basically I’m just trying to say that in my little series here Z or Kurt haven’t said anything about their feelings..~

 

It was uncommon for Kurt to be doing much on the server, as in hanging out with some of the guys. He was still a bit overwhelmed by all these group events on the server and the fact so many people were just on. Lots of people would be at spawn and that’s mainly where he went due to his troublesome caving. Every time he would avoid eye contact and very rarely give a quiet “hi" to anyone he happened to make word with. But today was a little different. Zisteau said he wanted to go out with Kurt, just to talk with him. Lucky for Kurt he had some things on mind that could maybe open up a conversation. But he was starting to get the impression it was because he was quiet often and thinking so much. He didn’t want him to be worrying though. But he wouldn’t turn down the offer or else it would make things worse. But he was still a bit nervous as to where any conversation would go. He still got that fluttery feeling each time he was going to hang out with Zisteau. Kurt was already making his way to the nether portal to try and find Zisteau’s portal, which seemed a little impossible seeing that everything was still under construction. Just as he started walking down the long hallway Zisteau appeared from behind one of the corners.

"Oh, hey Kurt! I was just going to come and find you, seeing that all these hallways are confusing." He gestured towards the hall he came from.

Kurt was still quiet and didn’t make a remark only silently followed him through the long hallway. Zisteau didn’t bother in saying anything either seeing that it would be best for Kurt right about now. It didn’t take long before they reached a portal that had a sign hanging from the top that had his buddy’s name written across. One after the other they stepped through the light purple substance and emerged on the other side. Kurt had never been here before and he didn’t think anyone else has either. He was surprised to say the least that Z had chosen a snowy biome. But he smiled at the work Zisteau had done already. He never failed to impress.

"How about we get down from here? It can be a bit dangerous…" Zisteau suggested, seeing that some of these narrow paths may not be fitting for two people.

"Uh.. yeah, okay." He tried to sound casual even though he was just kicked out of his thoughts and hadn’t totally heard the other man.

Z carefully led him down the narrow paths and to the ladder where they both were able to climb down and reach the ground. Kurt looked up to examine the sun and by the looks it would be close to setting. but he felt safe when he glanced at the large amount of torches around the area.

"So… um, why’d you want me over?" Kurt asked quietly as the both settled on a less snowy hill near the frozen lake.

The other shrugged but Kurt saw an expression on him that made him wonder a bit. “Eh, nothing really. It’s nice to just have a friend over right?"

Friend. For some reason that term bothered him. “Yeah, I.. I guess you’re right."

Zisteau turned to face him, his eyes darting across Kurt’s figure, obviously looking for any signs of negative expressions. “I’ve been meaning to ask… How have you been? It’s been a while since we hanged out and I wanted to know if you’re doing well.. Are you still thinking a lot?"

Kurt was quiet for a little. Well I can’t just say no to this. "Yeah, I have a bit…"

Zisteau held back a sigh. “Kurt, what’s troubling you so much? I know it’s probably not my business but since I’m your friend I do worry about you."

Again. Friend. Kurt wasn’t sure how he was supposed to say anything and the fact he was thinking he could start a conversation with things on his mind seemed hopeless now. He wasn’t so sure if he should say anything now. “Um…" He took a shaky breath before saying something else.

Kurt palms were sweaty and he didn’t even make eye contact with Zisteau as he opened his mouth again. “Well, I don’t know how to say it Z… I just have so many things on mind and they’re either about myself or about people I know. I feel like I’m too quiet and no one likes that and eventually I’ll loose my friends. I can’t seem to bring myself to speak or do much in group activities so really I don’t find any reason I should join in on any of it." Kurt paused for a moment and glanced at Zisteau. All he could see in the other’s eyes was concern. “And then there’s this guy. He’s a really good friend and I.. I don’t know, I think I love him. He cares so much about what’s going on with me too and we’ve gone out for fun a few time recently but I just don’t know if he feels the same. All he does is refer to us as friends…" Now he knows but… is he going to ask who?

Kurt trailed off quietly and as he was distracted by his thoughts again a grin appeared on his lips but disappeared quickly when the other man turned to him. “Kurt, trust me; you being quiet is just who you are. No one on the server doesn’t like you for that! Everyone here likes you. You’re one of the coolest guys here. I don’t see how anyone wouldn’t want to be your friend. but if you feel you aren’t comfortable doing some group events don’t pressure yourself into it either." He smiled to reassure him what he was saying was true. “And… ‘this guy’ may not know even know that you have feelings for him. I think it would be better if you told him because maybe he feels that same way."

At this point Kurt was aware of Zisteau’s smile and it definitely wasn’t a just a reassuring one anymore but more so inquisitive. Kurt’s heart was pounding hard now. Zisteau was definitely getting a clue of it now and he knew he couldn’t just end it here. By the time Kurt decided to open his mouth again his cheeks were red with blush. “Zisteau I think I love you.. No, I do love you and I wanted to know if… if you felt the same…"

"Kurt…" Zisteau moved a little close to him comfortingly entwining his finger’s with the other man’s. “I’ve loved you for a long while. I’m sorry you had to go so long being worried about it."

Before Kurt could make a thankful reply Zisteau pressed his lips again Kurt’s for a long passionate kiss. Moments later they broke apart for breath, the two of them smiling. Zisteau chuckled at Kurt’s bright red face.

"…Promise you won’t over think now?"

"I promise."

 

FYI for anyone not following my tumblr, this is fic 2 out of 5! I have a list of ideas that I want to get done this summer :)