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Its back!

It's not a lovey dovey one for valentines im afraid folks, sorry >.<" give me time! It's coming its coming!!!!

I was struggling with a part of it s in advance the bit of writing sectioned off with ~~~~ well those are a memory :3 I'm hoping it works abit better than last time I thought it merged to well..

Thanks for reading :3

Spawn

"So... What the hells going on in hear then?" The figure demanded again after a few moments scilence..

"Guude?" Mc gamer asked squinting into the darkness "well it's nice to have you back we've all been worried about you!" He laughed nervously stopping as he realised he was the only one he looked around nervously and sat down in the shadows of Nebris.

Everyone was looking at each other trying to think of what to say. Baj noticed everyone's worried expressions.. They hadn't planned this.. No one had known where Guude had disaperared too but he had returned, with Bdoubleo in tow too. He sighed it had to look bad to the leader of everyone. He stood up from where he sat in the middle of the room with Pyro and Doc.

"Is that the first hello we get?" He sniffed crossing his arms giving a sarcastic expression "it's rude you know. We've all been bloody worrying about you going crazy" Guude stared back.. of course he should have known Baj would be a cocky smart ass.. He shook his head

"ok, ok I'm sorry... Hello everyone.. " he looked around the room he must've terrified the life out of them... Maybe I should have been abit less dramatic.. He looked around to Bdoubleo who was obviously trying not to laugh at the terror he had just caused but smiled, shrugged and walked in

"Hey guys, guess who's back" he grinned as everyone seemed to relax slightly "nice to see you too lapis lover" he chucked winking as mc gamer smiled and laughed back. Guude closed the door and walked into the middle of the room and sat next to Baj who had now decided to sit again everyone had relaxed now and began chatting again still glancing over at Guude like he was a rare item.. He imagined he would be bombarded with questions when this was done...

"So what's happend?" He asked quietly

Baj sighed and started from the beginning of everything that occurred while Guude had disapeared, there plan, what had happened so far and what they wanted to do

"And Milbee is ok with this?" Guude asked raising a eyebrow

Baj shrugged "he seems to think that Pause will just choose him.. He is pretty confident"

Guude sighed.. What a mess.. I leave for a few days and this happens "you could have just forced them to talk you know.."

Baj nodded silently "but we both know they need each other. Each is miserable without the other even if they try to hide it." He saw Guude's quick glance to Bdoubleo "I think you understand it better than most here..." He left the conversation hanging as he stood and walked over to join in the wither group chat. Guude had to admit he did, he just didn't like the fact they were trapped

"so you made this Pyro?" He asked as the young man jumped at being questioned..

"Um.. Yeah.. Baj asked if something like it existed... Me and doc found it and he worked on it... " he mumbled nervously "I didn't want to mess, I promise, but its true.. They are too stubborn I guess" he laughed nervously smiling. Guude relised he had never actually talked to Pyro much, he felt guilty he should have he was the leader after all

"I'm sorry I never really got to meet you much Pyro, it's good to have you hear" he smiled holding out his hand "I was just busy, maybe sometime you can teach me abit about this magic stuff?" Pyro looked shocked but quickly came around and shook Guude's hand

"Thank you... " he smiled nervously it's fine really, But the magic is really easy. I would be happy to help" he smiled at guude, he always thought He was quite cool. He was in charge, he even let him join all this.. Maybe he could finaly fit in better?

"Guys" Doc called as he stared at the purple ball "they've separated.. They must've argued when we all got distracted by Guude.." He explained quickly as Bdoubleo, Baj and Zisteau piled around the small group trying to get a look, Kurt had stayed back at a distance but was still trying to see looking slightly worried. Guude groaned and lent back "well... Lets get to work then..."

Pause

It was dark.. It was still rainng too, a storm was coming soon too, he could tell, the animals where freaking out. He was currently living in the cave with 2 wolves, a few squirrel and about 5 rabbits... All trying to find safe spots to wait out the storm. He sighed looking out back to where Beefs hole in the wall was..

Immature.. Your right... You are... He sighed and sat against the wall watching the rain hit harder and harder.. He wanted to go back.. But his pride stoped him.. after all how could he? You made a right ass of yourself.. He is probably is glad you've left... He had made a fool of himself plenty of times around Beef.. but this took the biscuit.

The cave was dark, he had only set one torch down to stop monsters forming.. He found a few block of wood he had borrowed from the chest and began to hack at them with a half broken stone axe, he didnt pay attention as he did the repetive job of hitting the logs and didnt notice the deep crack starting to run though the axe

"Shit" he cringed as it burst and the stone split into small sharp shards he winced as he saw a small trickle of blood running down his left Hand and felt a warmth on his cheek.. Great now this?

He couldn't help it now he just sat down n the cold stone floor, held his head in his hands and closed his eye... It was cold... He didn't have much food... His axe had broken so he would have to burn the wood by themself... Worse.. Beef hated him.. "What is it you want huh?" He sighed.. "

Do you want to just ruin my life...?" He felt cursed, this was torture, he couldn't do anything right.. And love? Yeah right.. he laughed sourly thinking of everything.. he couldnt stay with mibee.. he was a nice guy.. but it wasnt fair for him to be always wanting someone else.. He sighed.. Maybe I'm ment to be alone.. I should just leave...

One of the wolves had moved nearer to him smelling his blood and brushed against him to investigate the source he couldn't help but smile as it licked his hand gently he patted it on the head as it moved to the back of his cave with what he thought was its mate.. He sighed at the thought and got up trying not to think of Milbee or Beef and more about how he could get out of the forest..

Beef

He couldn't sleep... This wasnt right,, it shouldnt of happened.

Why did I snap at him.. It's not his fault I am such a coward.. He laughed at the thought withers, hights, lava even ghasts and I can't even admit my feelings to someone... The irony made him laugh more..

H wrapped the blankets around him as he crouched by the entrance he could see a small light on the other side of the creek... So he didn't go away at least... He felt relived, it was comforting to know he was close by.. even if Pause never wanted to talk to him again.. He still had to know he was ok..

He watched as a shadow flailed on the back wall of the cave Pause had called home, he saw as his friends shadow getting up and looking thought something... This isn't going to help Beef.. You need to get you both out of hear.. He put his head on his knees shivering as a cold wet breeze swept into his hole he closed is eyes wishing for time to turn back.. Before all this happened... He had been so close after black desert.. Damn vech..

~~~~~

They had just completed it.. Both if them had been on total highs laughing joking about the lack of beds and cursing Vechs into a whole manner of horrible places and deaths... Well that had been awkward after Zisteau and Vechs had found them to invite them to a small party to celebrate the success of black desert...

"A hole of creepers yeah?" Vechs joked chuckling "you gotta think smarter than that to beat me guys!" He laughed winking at Zisteau who only smiled and nodded in agreement... "I hate you die in a fire" he joked

"No beds though.. Who can torture like that!" Pause growled still not over the idea "that is just plain evil" Vechs only shrugged and began to strike up conversation of how Pause had found the monsters. He had taken quite the shine to him.. Beef only slowed his pace and lared at the two walking ahead without a care.

The night had been strange, there had been a lot of people Beef didn't know, From what Beef had managed to see it was Vechs 'prizes' Zisteau.. Joe hills... People who were hardcore fans people who he used to beta test, even other map makers. Vechs had taken Pause to meet other people he used to beta test, damn vechs.. Beef had stayed near the back of the room sipping his drink. watching Vechs and his white ball of whatever it was with a close eye

"You ok Beef?" Zisteau asked as he squeezed his way through a group of people discussing how to get a picture of Vechs without seeming rude.

"Huh? Yeah, yeah I'm fine.. Not been to a party in awhile.." He chuckled "out of practice"

Zisteau looked at Him carefully he wasn't comfortable, he knew it was because Pause had such ease talking to people, he couldnt hide feelings as much as he might want too... Beef was also more cautious he wasn't shy like Kurt he had to admit to himself, he just... chose friends carefully

"Pause is a live wire at a party isn't he?" He sipped his whiskey slowly

"Yeah.. He likes to drink anyway.." Beef nodded taking a drink still looking in Pause and Vechs direction "where is kurt? Did he not come?" He Had noticed the young man and his wolf weren't around which was strange, nowadays he followed Zisteau like a shadow..

"Nah.. His shyness isn't up for it yet.. He didn't want me to miss it thought.. He wants Vechs to like him I suppose.." He shrugged watching the look pass on Beef's face. "Vechs isn't a bad guy you know. He.. He just knows what he wants.." he laughed nervously scratching his head trying to think of a better way to explain it. He looked in beefs direction of sight seeing Vechs 'fairy' giving out <3 signs like it was its job every time Vechs talked to Pause... He knew it was bugging Beef..

"You guys had a thing though didn't you.. Doesn't it bother kurt?" Beef asked quicky breaking his eyes from that area of the room, and suddenly beat himself mentally for even suggesting it.. Damn alcohol.. Zisteau scratched his head again he had knew this was bound to come up..

"He is ok with it" Zisteau admitted quietly, this was private.. But Beef was someone he could trust. "he knows it was just a stupid.. I don't know.. Fling?" He laughed "it was never serious.. Kurt knows that.." He smiled to himself.. it always supprised him how forgiving kurt was, he would alwas try to make sure everyone else was happy even if it cost im his own happyness.. he glanced quickly at Beef breaking his thoughts "how are you and Pause?"

"What about us..." Beef sighed finishing his drink as he saw zisteas questioning look "is it that obvious...?" he asked pinching the bridge of his nose with his fingers..

"kinda.." zisteau admited "your secrets safe with me though.." Beef rolled his eyes as Zisteau chuckled

"he is just reckless.. he doesnt wait and listen its just all action " Beef sighed "i cant keep up.. i cant tell him anything.. i cant understand anything with him.." he glanced back over to the bar. Vechs and Pause now seemed to be trying to out do each other by taking shots..

"But Pause isn't like all of us.. Maybe you just have to try understand how HE see's things.." Zisteau suggested watching the compatition is slight disgust.. Well that's stupid. Vechs has a liver of steel Zisteau thought as he took another sip of his whiskey.

Beef was quiet as he pondered Zisteau's input.. He's right.. But why does he have to act like such a show off! It frustrated him that he couldn't just act normal.. "I think I'm going to head now.." Beef shouted to Zisteau as the music got louder and more bassy "just incase Pause asks.."

Zisteau nodded wilently hoping is advice had gone through and patted him on the shoulder and headed towards a slightly intoxicated Vechs who was looking like he might be sick.. White text wasnt doing much better.. if that was flying... well he was a watermelon..

Beef started to weave his way to the door. He sighed in the cold air it was nice after that cramped, humid room..

"Beef where are you going!?" Pause shouted from the door, he was already slightly drunk and wobbled as he walked to Beef

"You are drunk Pause.. You should go home" he winced as he felt himself getting slightly nauseous... Speak for yourself..

"Nono I'm fine.. " the Indian insisted grabbing his friends shoulder as he tried to sit down "aren't you happy... We beat that god damn map" he asked practicaly throwing himself down closing his eyes In the cold air.

"Yeah I'm fine, how did the 'competition' go?" Beef asked using his fingers for a sarcastic air quote, sitting next to Pause not really intrested, it had been a stupid thing to do

"Great" he grinned "he floored himself" he laughed stopping as he winced at the loud noise

"You need to go home Pause. You're livers probably dead by now.. " he shook his head "why do you drink so much you will just suffer in the morning." Pause shrugged

"no one notices anyway... " he began as Beef sighed "why do you care, it's my liver" he rolled his eyes at Beef waiting for a reply

He had to turn away he knew he was still staring at him.. He was tounge tied.. "Cause.. Well otherwise you... you would be dead by now probably!" Oh just say it you ideot.. It was a opportunity..!

"... Your a good friend Beef.." Pause turned away sighing as he got up he used all his remaining concentration on staying upright as Beef grabbed his hand to push him upright as he had started to lean to much to the right

"Pause please come home.. You can bed it at mine.. " he begged slightly getting worried "I'm not leaving you alone like this!"

Pause chuckled "I will be fine.. Don't want to be a intrusion" Beef felt the pressure on his hand as it faded as he let go his heart sunk.. He knew where this was going..

"Pause, you're just going to end up getting hurt" He groaned as Pause tried to pull him towards the party again

"Oh don't be a spoil sport..." Pause laughed "it's fun!" He turned and looked at Beefs face.. He was worried.. "Give me a good reason why..?" He questioned watching as Beefs face got extremely red and he started to get flustered..

"I.. Well.. " why is this so hard to say!!!! He was frustrated.. He hadn't expected Pause to do this.. Zisteau's comment replayed in his mind..

"You.. You just have to trust me!" He spat out wincing as he heard himself say it.. Really? Honestly.. Way to blow a chance..

Pause only stared at him.. "I do.. " he replied quietly dropping Beefs hand "I just want another drink.." He turned and began to slowly walk the small hill back to the wooden building as Beef sat watching him go..

Zisteau hid behind the door as Pause entered, he heard him muttering under his breath.. Beefs name seemed to be the reason of it anyway.. He knew why Pause was acting this way..

He had been drunk before the party even reached its peak.. Maybe he should have told Beef.. He could see the dejection on his face.. he knew how hard it was.. He had not wanted to push Kurt further than he needed.. but it was hard to not just come out with it, risk a friendship and be rejected however sure you where..

"Where's Beef?" He asked knowing they had came together

"Away sulking.. " Pause slurred slightly "he doesn't like parties..or drinking.."

Zisteau shook his head "there's no need to drink this much Pause.. Why bother.." He watched as he shrugged. he looked like he wanted to say something.. He didn't press.. He just sat down and sipped his single malt scotch

"It's the only way he notices me.." He sighed "if I act like a ideot, he gets mad.. But he notices me" he shrugged and put his head on the table as Zisteau leaned on it

"You shouldn't drink for stuff like that.." Zisteau sighed "just tell him.. "I

"I don't have anything to tell him.." Pause snapped feeling himself grow redder why did I say that.

"Yeah.. Ok Pause.. I'm going to find Beef ok?" He sighed getting up and leaving hoping he might have left him something to think about watching as Vechs finaly made his run to Pause..

~~~~

Beef shuddered.. It was freezing now,. He looked around the corner to outside and seen the rain had stopped.. But it had got colder.. Damn vech.. He had got so jealous at that party.. He still didn't know what had happened.. He knew something had.. Pause had never been right with him scince that night.. He thought about what Zisteau had told him..

But Pause isn't like all of us.. Maybe you just have to try understand how HE see's things.. He was right.. Pause didn't act like that around the others. Slightly.. But not as wild as with him.. Was it just him wanting attention.. Would he actually reflect his feelings.. There's only one way to find out I suppose..

He took a last look outside and moved back to his bed and curled under the covers I will tell him tomorrow.. I need to know.. If he doesn't.. Well.. I don't know. He felt tired this had mentally exhausted him.. He just wanted sleep as he felt his eyes dropping.. Tomorrow.. Definitely...

Thank you to guilty shirts for allowing me to use her white text idea ^_^ happy anime face for you!

I don't know what happened to vech in my mind.. Somehow i seemed to make him like slughorn from Harry potter >.< it's a strange place.. My brain..